the current storm

I'm sitting in Real Property class, where we are discussing law that I find interesting and fascinating. It takes me outside my current troubles for a little time. Short and limited relief, but relief it is. Intellectual and philosophical distractions take root in my soul, and feed me in ways that make no logical sense. Each morning the day may bring resolution, and each evening the mantle descends. I wonder when the weather will break.

I looked up in class tonight and find that I am cordial with these people, but all the ones I bonded with in that first year are gone. Today, I'm unable or unwilling to start over. Tomorrow may be a new day. I know there are some interesting people here but they too did some early bonding, with others. Breaking in is hard, and the urge to isolate further is strong.

what I learned in class tonight

I hereby quitclaim my interest in the overlong grass growing in my yard, the dog shit therein, and the electric trimmer currently residing in my front yard. I've been hoping someone would adopt the trimmer, as they are wont to do whenever I leave anything out front and without a chain and lock on it. My present intent is to transfer, convey, assign, alienate...the trimmer. It works, but I'm conveying it without warranty, because it was cheap and may break down at any time. I can't find the replacement 'string', and I'm done looking. Who needs trimmed edges anyway?

obscurity in my windshield

Dark valleys and long nights. I do not see the end, nor the point in trudging forward. Still I do, but I have lost the reason why. And I am resigning from my friendships-today, all of them. I am sure I will feel differently later. Today I can't see the point.