A friend reminded me that I have not yet told you about the Bar results. I took the California Bar Exam at the end of July, and immediately after I tried very hard to forget all about it. I came home from a long trip on the day results were posted, November 21. Even that one day seemed interminable as I waited, but eventually it was 6pm and time to look at the list.
So much was riding on passing the bar, making it difficult to view it with any kind of perspective. As the day crawled past, I pulled further and further inward, seeking solitude in the last hour before results were released.
And then, there it was. My name, on the pass list. What a huge relief it was, and then almost immediately, the realization that now nothing stands in the way of being a lawyer except me. This going out and getting a job thing, that's scary too. It seems that one success just leads to a new challenge, new stomach-churning moments.
For a minute one day this week, I realized that even this is not all that big. It too will fade, and even if I can't find a job right away, life will somehow go on. If only I could hang on to that perspective, I would. But it slipped from my fingers almost as quickly as it came.
This blog was meant to chronicle the story of my law school experience, and here we are at the very end of that road. Life of course will carry on, but it's time for this blog to lay its proverbial head down and rest. Taking its place will be a new venue to discuss legal topics and far flung peripherals, if this blog is any indication. I'll come back here to post the link for the new blog once it's up and running. Thank you for your attention to my four years of incoherent ramblings.
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