The adventures of a middle aged law student

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

unmoored

Sitting here high above the river, whiling away the afternoon studying civil procedure, and feeling contemplative and peaceful. One of the benefits of middle age is that I recognize both the beauty of this moment and its fleeting nature. Here this moment, gone very soon. So I'm grateful for this moment.

At times like this I wish I could capture somehow this feeling so that I can bring it back when life presses in hard. But alas, my humanity gets in the way and I forget, or at least forget to remember. Still, right now I can see forever, and all is well. That water rushing over the dam has no thought for from whence it came and where it goes. It just goes. I am incapable of such mindlessness nearly always, save rare occasions.

It's one of the things I find enticing about foreign travel. I am suddenly sitting in a place I've never been, where no one knows me, no one knows where I am, and the noise and language surrounding me are foreign to me. Then, just for a bit, I can slip the skin of self awareness and constant interpretation of the goings on around me. I can float, and let go.

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