I like to think I mostly have my shit together by this point in my life. I have self identified as a cynical pollyanna type, which means that while I see no long term hope for humankind, tomorrow looks rosy.
Ah but today, today was a very dark day, for no one reason, and for all reasons. It's reasonable that I would be somewhat thrown off by the recent uncertainty about my job due to a pending merger, and it's rational to feel anxiety when I think about the Bar Exam that looms ever closer. And the dark days of winter have cast their seasonal pall about me. What surprises and disappoints me is how vulnerable I am to all these outside influences.
I thought I had just such marrow in my bones but today I am not able to locate it, if it is there. Tomorrow may be better.
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