They say there's nothing new under the sun. I think they may be on to something, because while each new revelation appears as a new and exciting discovery to me, I inevitably find it laid out in someone else's words, written long before I stumbled on to the life altering (for a second) truth.
Take this, for instance: "Failure (or success) -- or at least the prospect of failure (or success) -- is what gives the journey proper context, rich consistency, and towering emotional, physical, financial and spiritual stakes that fertilize the soul for quantum growth irrespective of outcome. And growth is everything. But it can only result from earnest investment in experience." from http://www.huffingtonpost.com/rich-roll/stop-life-hacking_b_5522006.html.
I've been talking about the experience of law school, the journey of these past four years. I definitely had a concrete goal of finishing, and while that is tremendously gratifying, I discovered that it was in the process that I found the real reward, the things that I will carry with me. I discovered a love of the law, of mulling over a philosophical aspect of justice. I savored those discussions with Peter, Jean, Abigail, Dave, and others. I found in myself the whatever-it-is that made me dig down deep and push forward when it just seemed like too much, to stay with it and test what I could do. That alone was worth the price of admission, but I got so much more. Most of all, I got the day to day experience of the hard work, the fun, the joy and the sorrow, the aliveness of fully inhabiting my days.
". . . not a day goes by that I don't feel tremendous gratitude for the process endured to arrive at those seminal moments in my life . . ." (see above)
I'm not the first to pass this way, I see signs of those who have walked ahead of me. I may be lost, but I'm not the only one.
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